Love Crickets & Grass Bugs

Don't Ask Me Why

2011-02-01T15:23:00.000-08:00

i've never once filled one of these surveys out and not regretted it. but i want to blog again! but i'm afraid! so maybe this will be the beginning. again. because that's what everything is.

2. How big is your bed? huge enough for everyone! you would never think so. but it is.

3. What are you listening to right now? the loudest thing is a fire in the hearth. then celtic music from downstairs i can hardly hear, the dog snoring and my mother turning pages of one of my sister library books which she says explains some of her recent bad behavior. apparently even the library is a dangerous place for a mentally disturbed teenage girl.

4. What are the last 4 digits in your cellphone number? really? so this is why i haven't done one of these in years. the questions are always lame.

5. What was the last thing you ate? mmm...last nights dinner my mom just heated up for me. best squash i've had...ever.

6. Last person you hugged? tessa the tiny toot. or a dog.

7. How is the weather right now? windy! it seeped into my dreams and prevented me from sleeping all night long!

8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? i do not know their name. i'm playing harp for an art show in may now. instead of friday.

9. What is the first thing you notice in the opposite sex? eyebrows ;)) jk. hair and ears and feet and nose, i'm sure.

10. Favorite type of Food. jalapeno and pineaple pizza. omelet sandwich. indian food. carrot juice.

11. Do you want children? only if i marry someone that looks like a baby so my children can look like babies forever. huge babys. you could even say Big Babies ;)) ...you know.

12. Do you drink? carrot ginger cucumber celery juice!!! and coconut water!!!! mmm!!!

13. Ever get so drunk you don't remember the entire night? me!?!

14. Hair color? brown and orange, for today.

15. Eye colour? something...

16. Do you wear contacts/glasses? no way!

17. Favorite holiday? oh! thanksgiving! and christmas! and halloween!!!

18. Favorite Season? spring and summer and fall. that leaves you out, winter. you deserve it.

19. Have you ever cried over a girl/boy? oh my. no, not me!

20. Last Movie you Watched? secret of the kells!!!

21. What books are you reading? effortless mastery, yoga anatomy, pride and prejudice and zombies...i'm sure there are others.

22. Piercings? just my ears.

23. Favorite Movie? the labyrinth, the last unicorn, harold and maude, The fearless vampire killers, band of outsiders, legend, breakfast at tiffany's, cry baby, easy A, house bunny, The dark crystal, tess of the d'urbervilles, sense and sensibility, Calamity Jane, Amadeus, chitty chitty bang bang, The scarlet pimpernel...

24. Favorite college football Team? i don't even know a single one!

25. What were you doing before filling this out? sewing with my mother :)

26. Any pets? at my house: Rita the cat, kitty the cat, rigul the dog and chickens. at my parents house: tansy and cumin the dogs, willow and ruger the cats and the chickens.

27. Dogs or cats? cats. unless its a huge overly affectionate golden retriever :)

28. Favorite Flower? honeysuckles, dandelions and gardenias.

29. Have you ever loved someone? no way, man.

30. Who would you like to see right now? i'm good for now. oh degrey!

31. Have you ever fired a gun? at zombies!

32. Do you like to travel by plane? yes, sir!

34. Are you missing someone? there could be someone. but i seem to have forgotten about them.

35. Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings? do they still have them? i'm sure they're terrible. all cartoons are these days.

36. Are you hiding something from someone? from all the world!!! i live for dirty little secrets ;)

37. ARE YOU 18? – i may as well be 43...tessa tells me i will be before i know it. 5 year olds know everything.

38. DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LAST NIGHT? i must have! despite the wind and the shaking of the windows and running around the streets barefoot at 4 am, i feel delicious today.

39. FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THIS MORNING? where am i??? oh ya :)

38. WHAT DO YOU HAVE HANDY AT YOUR BEDSIDE? books, candlesticks, letters, my mighty little space heater, a giant glass of water...

39. GRILLED OR FRIED? grilled and then fried. in coconut oil. ;)

41. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK? terribly. which would explain all of last nights shenanigans.

42. FAVORITE HANGOUT? my candle lit bedroom with all of my dear ones.

43. 3 THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT? rich food, beautiful noise and and and and arizona gunslinger hot sauce ;)))

45. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF? i don't want the universe to know.

46. ARE YOU A GIVER OR TAKER? hm...

56. THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEET? the softest blues you've ever seen!

Come Along, Child!

2010-05-21T18:36:00.000-07:00

i don't know how to blog about myself. my life is too personal. i need to find something to blog about...

Repeat.

2010-05-18T09:38:00.000-07:00

The Great Race

2010-03-17T09:23:00.000-07:00

One of my favorite parts of the Lava Hot Spring Retreat:

So terribly funny.

YouTube has made the "when two people love eachother" conversation so much easier for parents. no excuses. ;)

Lava Hot Springs

2010-03-17T08:00:00.000-07:00

Kayla, Shauna & I went to Lava Hot Springs, Idaho this weekend! And all we did was eat, soak, sleep, massage, read and play truth or dare...best weekend EVER! ;) oh and we sewed. and watched a show about twinkle, evil reptiles, babies, the inbetweeners and the great sperm race. I promise we didn't watch tv the whole time!
perfect little baby road trip.

Twinkle!!!!
I just want to know the truth!!!! i still can't figure it out!!!

Wishing & Hoping & Praying

2010-02-27T17:47:00.000-08:00

Joanna Newsom, still not in my mail box and that is the greatest disappointment. I've only been able to listen to the new album on youtube because its not posted on any of my other music listening websites. so so so frusterating. I would have just downloaded off itunes but I want the actual CD. Never ordering a CD from them again. They're lame.

+But i got my license yesterday and now i can get a real job and be a real independent human being!!! hooray!!!

i had a most true sleep over with two of my most true loved besties last night. we stayed up till 5. lately i feel so old. i've got this ache behind my left scapula and a hungry feeling in my heart. *please hope something spectacular happens in the near future*. My littlest sister is such a real human with such true and precious feelings. her tiny heart knows things i've only just barely experienced. Here i am thinking i've been suffering from being abandoned by two sisters in the same 12 months all alone. She's been sorrowing with me the whole time. That sounds like a line from Never Ending Story. Also, Kayla and i are the same person. In SO many ways. feeling desolate for the last several months has been completely unnecessary. but i knew that.

two people in my head that i don't know, having conversations.

2010-02-25T09:37:00.000-08:00

i dream about chickens and barnyards ALL THE TIME.
i've made up these creatures that are like a mix between goats and lizards. and they always make a very distinct sound and are always rude to me and always mixed in with the chickens and geese. terrifying. i looked them up on google and they aren't real.
another part of my dream...this boy had a crush on my boyfriend and was trying to figure out how to pursue him...i pretended i wasn't listening a. because i felt awkward and b. because it was a little bit funny.

HUGE BUNNY!!!!

I still haven't gotten new joanna newsom in the mail. just waiting and watching tiny willow stare into the fireplace. he looks about to pounce...willow and his obsession with movement. i hope he stays a kitten for a long time.

this is my favorite so far. maybe. i love them all.

Kingfisher

2010-02-19T14:23:00.000-08:00

is this real???? february 23rd??? dying!

...It is true! i just pre ordered it! hooray!!! 3 discs. yikes!

GOOD GRAVY!

2010-02-18T10:55:00.000-08:00

in love! this may be the best thing i've seen/heard in my whole life. oh my.

Possibly You Can Beat The Wishing Bone.

2009-12-27T18:47:00.000-08:00

Bulgarian Letter Translated Into English. oh hilarious, Taylor.

Hello Overpower friend Kjirsten!
I hope that everything should be only antic on you home! I hope that you should get really for delayed day to thanking and receive truly oil away for everything A turkey and squashed potatos! Possibly you can beat the wishing bone. What do you drank Want ? I love your e-mails! They make you my day so very better! Well the fouls tell whether it interprets that well! Possibly it will do many mistakes! That was going to be aweful to Li sad, .
love
Taylor

There Are Nicer Things Than Apples, Prince.

2009-12-26T12:03:00.000-08:00

Grandma Whirly & The Pink-Cheeked Poopies

2009-09-17T10:31:00.000-07:00

doo wop! doo wop!

more later, perhaps.

Please Come With ME!!!! http://www.kvmr.org/celticfestival/

P.S. What should i be for halloween???

search for something more aesthetically pleasing

2009-09-05T21:28:00.000-07:00

now every time i open my blog i have to stare at reba. blogging about her was the worst idea ever...besides that it was kind of funny.

LOOK AT THIS INSTEAD:

no more reba. no more reba.

Reba Forever.

2009-09-05T13:08:00.001-07:00

Ever since i was a little girl i have had this thing against reba. is she even a real human???

she's like the james bond of country. she keeps coming back and for some reason every time i see her she looks younger. and everyone secretly knows james bond isn't a real human. maybe the new one is...but the Sean Connery, Pierce Brosnan and so on James Bonds were not real humans. Plus, only Chuck Bass gets that many girls in real life. Reba gets no girls. She doesn't even get an upper lip. thats probably what gets me the most. i know that she's not above plastic surgery. look at her face! and yet she's still fine with having no upper lip. what if she had no bottom lip either! what would she look like then!? i suppose God made her with no upper lip and judging her for it will only affect me. but i wouldn't be surprised if she had no top lip because she didn't want one. like it gives her character or something. an obnoxious character, she is. thats what she is.

this will hopefully be my only blog speaking negatively about anyones appearance. and i'm sorry reba, please hope you never read this. i'm sure you're a pleasant person.

also your accent is the most annoying.

Unusual Reaction

2009-09-04T10:15:00.000-07:00

gross. you know those games that pop up along the tops and sides of internet pages??? i just played one where you have to pop a zit with a needle...i may have played it three times. but then i almost barfed. but it was definitely a cartoon.

Don't Tell Kayla

2009-07-30T10:27:00.001-07:00

wahahahahah!!!! could not keep it to myself!!!

lets hope her months of bad hygiene in Ghana end before she gets back.

i lub you kayla ann ;))))

I'm wearing your underwear because i miss you. sorry ;)

2009-07-09T09:20:00.000-07:00

From Kayla Ann:
*we filled our belly buttons with lotion and went to sleep to see what would happne?
*rode our bikes to the park listening to 'better togehter' and laying in the grass looking at the clouds?
*we took baths and washed eachother's hair?
*hid an entire chocolate cake in our room and ate it secrely at night?
*ate delicious huge sandwiches under a tree?
did pedicures in bowls in the living room?
watched xfiles and danced ridiculously to the theme music?
flirted with boys on motorcylces on my bday cause we could?
dressed up really cute and went to PF changs and a movie cause we hated boys?
went running and listened to the SAME playlist at the SAME time?
i came to your school and you gave me the best massage ever when i was sad?
you told me how cuite you and justins date was and i cried because of joy?
we ran away from the group while caroling?
we would ride our bikes to the grocery store?
we bought matching angry gumball helmets?
we changed eachothers facebook status and pictures but never got truly mad at eachother?
i bauled at you cause i missed crystal?
you would do energy work on my tummy?
we wanted to sing duets together, but never did?
we saw wicked and loved it?
we would rub ctr on our whole bodies and fall asleep?
explored slc museums and retro strores and the pie?
can relate to the song 'tim, wish you wer born a girl?'
we would go on night runs for cookie dough or ice cream?

From Kjirsty Marie:

*When we would only play with eachother for a whole summer and wait for eachother to get home...hiding from all our other roommates.

*our cutie bike rides!

*reading to eachother from the mammoth encyclopedia of the unexplained at our picnics in the park.

*laying beneath glow in the dark names such as lindsay and rachel (was that it?)

*The day we moved into raintree and i hid in the closet texting you for an hour because i didn't want to meet our roommates without you!

*buuurger supreme ;)

*tie dye double dating!

*crying to eachother about EVERYTHING.

*Michael Franti Concerts...so many of them!!! wahahah and we would sing bay he bay in an old man cake throat yell!

*dancing in the kitchen and in the hall, heinously and just barely out of eyesight.

*making our whole living room a bed and having several day long sleepovers.

*meeting moroni at the pool. how is he a real human!?!

*Kjirst & Kayla hate boys date night, we saw the rocker and thought it was the best movie ever! i saw it on sunday. i still love it.

*terrifying, being chased by you in the dark with your blinking headlamp! i get the creeps just thinking about it.

*you slipped off the toilet and yelled at me because there was coconut oil on it wahahha ;)

*when you were convinced that the james blunt song said "my life is bread" and you refused to believe otherwise and we fought loudly and laughed hysterically late into the night!

*cousins dating best friends!!!

*muldering obsessions.

*The best cross-eyed belching i've ever witnessed.

*birthday cake making.

*the night we couldn't fall asleep at all so we took showers and talked all night.

*Violently changing the words to touch my body. yikes!

*chasing eachother down the hall with our shirts over our heads and pants to our armpits. i've seen the possible blackmail pictures and am still frightened.

*experiences unexplainable. you could even say they were x-files.

*dancing to our favorite he-who-must-not-be-named song (girl your my guitar).

*possible boycrush paranoia.

*when you'd sing out of tune on purpose and were SO good at it! i couldnt believe it!

*awkward double dates (he's just being mylie???)

*not being able to listen to moby's the sky is broken without fantasizing about mulder.

*crying when we saw wicked because it was us and i had to say goodbye to you!

*actually saying goodbye to you, i hated it so much but it made me realize how much you really mean to me. i don't know if anyone has meant so much.

"So much of me is made of what i learned from you. you'll be with me like a handprint on my heart. and now whatever way our stories end i know you have re-written mine by being my friend...who can say if i've been changed for the better? because i know you, i have been changed for good. And just to clear the air, I ask forgiveness. For the things i've done you, blame me for. But then, I guess we know there's blame to share. And none of it seems to matter anymore...I do believe i have been changed for the better. And because i knew you i have been changed for good."

3 Times a Day!

2009-07-07T22:55:00.000-07:00

is that meals do you ask? no, i've been eating more like 5 meals the last few days. so what could it be, are you asking me? saving rolly pollies is my answer to your question! and i hate it. in fact, i have another number 5 thing...i just saved 5 rolly pollies out of my bathroom. no pun intended! just now. at one time! you can probably look anywhere on the floor in my house and see one crawling to some strange destination such as the massage room or the bathroom. i most do not like when they go in the kitchen. because i always forget about them when i go in the kitchen and then i step on them and they sound crunchy and i always feel bad. how do they even get in here? i told them when i saved those 5 at the same time that this nonsense wont be happening again. down the toilet like cherie said! so get out of my house. the day i find one in my bed is the day i commit murder!!!!

Sumo of the Day!

2009-07-02T20:08:00.000-07:00

So i was reading about Sumo Wrestlers today and according to this i'm on my way to becoming one!!!! hooray!!! just for today. i'll never wait so long to eat the hugest of nachos again.

Sumo Wrestlers: This is How You Get Fat

There's only one sport where they actually aim to gain as much body fat as possible: Sumo Wrestling. According to this article - here is what a sumo wrestler does to get fat:

1. Skip breakfast. By depriving their bodies of food after eight hours of sleep, their metabolic rates stay low.
2. Exercise on an empty stomach. If their bodies have
no food, their metabolic thermostats are turned down even lower to conserve fuel.
3. Take a nap after eating. The Sumo secret for gaining weight is that, after eating, they sleep for at least four hours.
4. Eat late in the day. Going to bed with full stomachs means that their bodies must respond to the huge flood of nutrients with a rush of insulin, forcing their bodies to store some of it in the cells as fat instead of in the muscles and organs as nutrients.
5. Always eat with others in a social atmosphere. According to leading researchers, a meal eaten with others can be at least 44 percent larger and with 30 percent more calories and fat.

There's a lot we can learn from this...

Spontaneous Kitty Combustion

2009-06-28T13:05:00.000-07:00

Dear Sister-in-Law,

I'm sorry that I have to tell you this in an email. I do not have the courage or tact to approach the situation otherwise. It seems to me that your long loved kitty, Aria, has spontaneously combusted. And being nothing but a pile of cat particles was then carried away by a unexpected gust of wind that then swept through my house and out the open window. You could say Aria is now, literally, "the dust of the earth". or maybe she just jumped out the window while Cherie and I were dying our hair. SORRY!!!! :)))

With You, Girl!

2009-06-27T23:13:00.000-07:00

Oh the songs that make me cry...

Unexpected, I know, but

definitely on the top of my list these days:

Girl, You're My Guitar!

And The Gathering Floozies.

2009-06-27T13:32:00.000-07:00

wah! I may love this song too much! thats ok! my mom says ya! ...thats a lie. she actually thinks its annoying. at least degreys beginning to understand.

Who's Eliza???

The Morning Afterglow

2009-06-27T12:19:00.000-07:00

So Cherie & I started a cutie little project today. We made body scrubs for a friends bridal shower. Along with Free Massage coupons its the perfect present, I think.

We have 3 scrubs so far:

*Earthly Naked, Heavenly Nude

Organic Raw Cane Sugar,

Sandalwood, Patchouli, Wise Woman

Essential Oil & Coconut Massage Oil.

*Peter Piper Picked a Flower

(hahaha our friend's fiancee is named Peter ;)

Organic Raw Cane Sugar,

Gardinia, Ylang Ylang, Violet, Chamomile

Essential Oil & Lavender Massage Oil

*Feel the Tingle

Organic Raw Cane Sugar,

Peppermint, Eucalyptus, Wintergreen

Essential Oil & Energizing Massage Oil.

I'm a sensitive boy!!!

2009-06-24T23:26:00.000-07:00

You seem markedly more & i'm oozing surprise!

if i didn't like justin so much i'd be dating this young man...

his name on youtube is brittle moon. just in case you wanted to subscribe ;)

Bridges & Balloons

2009-06-18T21:23:00.000-07:00

We sailed away on a winter's day

With fate as malleable as clay

But ships are fallible, I say

And the nautical, like all things, fades

And I can recall our caravel

A little wicker beetle shell

With four fine maste and lateen sails

Its bearings on Cair Paravel

Oh my love

Oh it was a funny little thing

To be

The ones

To've seen

The sight of bridges and balloons

Makes calm canaries irritable

And they caw and claw all afternoon

Catenaries and dirigibles

Brace and bouy the living room

A loom of metals warp woof wimble

And a thimblesworth of milky moon

Can touch hearts larger than a thimble

Oh my love

Oh it was a funny little thing

To be

The ones

To've seen

Oh my love

Oh it was a funny little thing

It was a funny funny little thing

-Joanna Newsom-

Birthday Dolly

2009-06-16T22:38:00.000-07:00

Point Your Nub in the right Direction!

2009-04-29T07:30:00.000-07:00

phebus does your arm have an infection???

Places I want to go:

Orangevale

not to the community poo...

or even the community center.

i'd just love to visit a few friendies.

Nevada City

wah! Ike's Cafe & Asylum Down & Co-Ho's

& the Truffle Shop & pioneer park...

The Yuba River

flower crowns & paper butterflies. sigh. ;)

Camping

i've waited long enough!!!

and a little apartment in france ;)

homework at my parents.

2009-04-28T19:09:00.000-07:00

MAKES ME WANT TO SCREAM!!!! WHY!?! so many children! and dogs! and phones ringing! and cookies!!!! oh yikes.

...does everyone REALLY have to come over tonight?

Future Career Possibilities...

2009-04-25T16:56:00.000-07:00

actually, this is just a list of things i'd love to do...and get paid for ;)

Read in a Tree
Meditate with Pregnant Women
Teach Kids how to make Pickle & Strawberry Sandwiches
Always Rhyme when i talk
Deliver Flowers by Bicycle
Hug Sad People
Talk to Old People
Take Other Peoples Children Hiking
Climb Trees
Call Everyone Older than me "Junior"
Study the Life Cycle of Asperagis ( & learn how to spell it)
Go On Dates with Nerds & be friends with them & if i wasn't so awkward myself i'd teach them how to talk to girls.
Create Herbal Tea Blends
Wash Cars & have Water Fights
Raise Other Peoples Chickens
Be a Personal Assistant to Sting
Prom Makeovers!
Name Farts
Something with People in Rehab
Library
Teach Harp Lessons outside...in the Forest
Translate for Handy Cap People
Be a Streetside Musician
Tell Bedtime Stories

Riddle Me This...

2009-04-13T20:12:00.000-07:00

you know what i was thinking about?

actually Cherie and I were wondering...

why does celery make your mouth numb?

Best answer i found:

Most likely the numbing effect you're noticing is from the Eugenol in the celery. It is the same compound found in higher concentrations in cloves.

Oh & guess what.

i found a song about dandelions :) it made me so happy!!!

(to the tune of puff the magic dragon! oh jeez.)

Dandelion flowers are a little sign of hope
Whoever poisons them on lawns would have to be a dope.
Or else someone who doesn’t know
what dandelions do
For our insides and our outsides and for our whole world too.

2) When dandelions are all grownTheir

puffy heads turn grey
And with my breath I blow their fluff
and watch it float away.
And in the spring it comes again
For us to pick and eat
A yellow dandelion lawnIs Mother Nature’s treat

3) If every lawn grew dandelions
Our air would be so sweet
Our tummies would be happy
They would tickle all our feet.
Every flower stands on guard
To help us day by day
I’ll have a dandelion lawn
Where you can come and Play!

Bro's Before Ho's

2009-04-08T18:58:00.000-07:00

wahahaha!!!! this has just been stuck in my head all day and i couldn't remember what it was from...so i youtubed it and now i can find it always :)

Atomic Tangerine

2009-04-08T16:40:00.000-07:00

i don't want to be her.

so what am i doing?

holi fest

2009-03-30T20:34:00.000-07:00

all of us truest loves @ the Festival of Colors...

i don't like it eat frogs.

2009-03-24T16:33:00.000-07:00

Today:

Tessa & i cleaned her room, watched the labyrinth & cooked broccoli :)))

Oh Beautiful Friend.

2009-03-22T16:39:00.000-07:00

i love logging into Kayla's facebook & changing things on her profile.

sometimes i think i'm hilarious. like today:

Isn't She Lovely? ;)

Where Will We Live???

2009-03-21T09:14:00.000-07:00

please hope.

this should be my puppy.

Goodness How It Goes...

2009-03-20T18:19:00.001-07:00

2 cars & a dog.

jeez i'm exhausted.

At least i was LOVED BY THE SUN!!! :)

Treedrum & Lilichichi

2009-03-18T21:05:00.000-07:00

One open mind tumbles into the trees...

& finds there a strange boy

playing in the leaves.

They sit around &

eat mothers making

& linger longer laughing & mistaking...

...These new age pharisees

overlook the urgency

of returning to simplicity.

before we reach capacity,

they're afraid to lose identity

amongst your foreign remedies...

Winter's cold

because he's old.

But through the snow,

The Daisies grow...

...Plants fill their height

In meadows of white.

The grass is to my shoulder

But you're completely covered.

As Fruit of imaginings,

Her existence began.

She sprouted from the soil

Like the pearl from a clam.

Nurtured by the earthen spirits,

Knowledge gathered like dew.

She spoke truths like a folk tale,

Only he'd believe were true.

Precious :)

Take That.

2009-03-14T20:52:00.000-07:00

My land lady is an imbecile.

There you go universe,

Do with her what you will.

2:58

2009-03-08T16:29:00.000-07:00

How Long Will You Hide

2009-03-03T17:51:00.000-08:00

How Long Will You Hide

Your Beautiful

Festive Smile

Teach Your Laughter

To a Flower

Manifest an Eternity

Why Do You Think

The Door to the Sky

Is Closed on Your Face

It Allures & Invites

Your Magical Touch

To Open & Arrive

An Entire Caravan

Is Waiting in Ecstasy

For Your Coming & Leading

Come on my Friend

Use Your Talisman &

Harness All Their Souls

Today is the Day to Unite

With Your Longing Beloved

Wait No More

For an Unknown Tomorrow

A Tambourine is in a Corner

Begging Your Playing Hands

A Flute is Sitting Dormant

Begging Your Happy Lips

Rumi

My Little Speragis, My Little Coconut Head!

2009-03-03T16:58:00.000-08:00

Dearest Cherie ree ree,

Oh, how i do love thee!

You are the truest friend to me.

Ask anyone & surely they'll agree.

Together we run & drink yummy tea.

Outside, its not uncommon for us to suddenly pee.

From the beginning, you helped me to realize the person i want to be.

With Kayla, our brotherhood is for eternity.

Us girls are the most true three.

When we're scared we scream like a banshee.

In the sunny sun of summerness we will climb a tree!

We love eachother all the time, all the time for free!

Remember that time we went to find the sea?

Or when we used to pump up our knees?

You are the most beautiful girl that is wee.

I will love you even when we're elderly.

& have even less control of our bladders, whoopee!!! ;)

*DaxFlame Smile*

Pardon Me For Being a Human!

2009-03-02T22:45:00.000-08:00

Rocks & Daggers

2009-03-01T12:31:00.000-08:00

Revis & I play together once a week. On thursday we went hiking! We saw 3 deer & climbed up a HUGE hill. we also found some cactus & picked our noses. ;)

Revis kept throwing rocks in the air...i was just waiting for one to hit him in the face. it didn't happen. hm.

I LOVE THAT LITTLE CREVIS!!!

...even if he is a giant human of a brother.

Dear Taylor,

2009-02-16T00:10:00.000-08:00

Truly, this has been one of the LONGEST weeks of my life! ah! so...wisdom teeth. i got them out monday morning...all 4 of them. they put me out for it which i am truly grateful. first time i've ever been injected with a needle. i later heard ridiculous stories of my post surgery chatterings. something about my gallbladder wanting me to eat more fat & an urgency to see a mirror & hold my teeth in my own hands. Yikes. my mom & i stopped at webot afterwards while we were waiting for my medications to be ready. so cherie & my dad got to see me. i don't really remember any of it, just flashes here & there. cherie later told me i looked like gollum with blood & gauze coming out the sides of my mouth, saying more ludicrous things i'm sure. i then was able to find my phone & send a number of people completely irrational texts. i do remember asking kayla & my friend justin what their "plannings of the night were about" & if they could "beby" sit me. i don't remember much of the first 3 days. i ate nothing the first two days & then only soups the next 2 or 3 days following that. i only just barely started eating real food & it is SO painful!!! my pain medication was a whole lot more intense than was needed. i got to hallucinate quite a bit which i only enjoyed some of the time. i talked to someone about what i was taking yesturday & they said..."you know, thats not too far off from heroin". i believe him. i took my last pill on friday night & have been in agony ever since. saturday i was a monster. a combination of the pain & withdrawals made me moody & emotional all day. i feel like a teething baby, it only hurts less when i'm chewing on something. or more. somtimes it just hurts more. ah! what i would do for some drugs! i can't believe they would give me so little. they didn't even get me through the week! i'm raving mad. you can tell i need them. hahhaha. i can't believe i am saying things like this! anyway...not much else has happened this week. lots of crazy dreamings, also thanks to my medication. i'm glad you had a dream that i was taller than you. :) thats funny. & that you gave jacob my email adress. i don't think i'm allowed to email him. he just gave me his address to write to. i was going to write him with my family tonight but i ended up taking a forever long nap & not even going. i'm excited for your transfer! i hope everything went well with that! can't wait to hear from you! i love you & think about you every day of my whole life!!!

kjirst

Baby food :(

2009-02-11T18:26:00.000-08:00

i got my wisdom teeth out this week. so i haven't eaten in...almost 4 days.

Soup, yogurt, kefir & pudding do NOT count. i am so sick of pretending to eat! i want REAL food!!!!

a REAL hamburger. & i want my mommy to make it!
a corn dog. sick, i know. but i love them & thats what i'm craving.
a burrito! like the one cherie ate the other night...i just watched her and i wanted it so bad.
rice...clayton said i can eat it right now...if i don't chew it.
pot stickers...kayla! i can't wait until you make them!
mmm...eggplant.
oh! sushi!!!
i want toast. actually i don't. i'm just saying that because honestly i just want to eat butter. a lot of it.
even Ramen would make me happy.
Nachos...i had the best nachos for my pre-wisdom teeth extraction meal. mmm...
beets! i could probably eat them now & tomatoes with salt and olive oil.
Pasta with Pesto...ah!
i'd even eat liver! which is one of the only foods i truly do not love.
i want a sandwich with pickles, sprouts, avocado, strawberries, sauerkraut & kefir cheese. possibly goat cheese too.

I HOPE I NEVER SEE TAPIOCA AGAIN!!!!

hm...or perhaps i'll eat some now. i'm so hungry...

I look like a cabbage patch doll

I Got Love For You

2009-01-30T14:01:00.000-08:00

Outside in the Freezing Michael Franti Snow

yet i claim to be a free bird...

2009-01-27T12:31:00.000-08:00

Rumi

Trigger Point Massage

Devendra Banhart

You ask me

who are you &

with such a shaky

existance how can you

fall in love

How do i know

who i am or where i am

how could a single wave

locate itself

in an ocean

You ask me

what am i seeking

above & beyond

the pure light

that i once was

& why am i

imprisoned in this cage

named body and

yet i claim to be

a free bird

How do i know

how i lost my way

i know for sure

i was all straight

before i was

seduced by love

-Rumi

So Much Love in My Heart

2009-01-23T10:01:00.000-08:00

Figs

Eyebrows & Joannas

Climbing Trees

Bernice & the Constant drip from her sunroof when it rains.

Strawberry Pickle Sandwiches

Naps in the Park

Phase 10

Composting at my parents! i cannot wait for my own!

Anthyony Kiedis.

The word Fallacy.

I like to wear band-aids. Just becaue i like them.

Nettle Tea

The Last Unicorn

Yoga...warrior poses..."laughing baby pose"???

My Qigong Class

Avoiding the freeway

Morning Hair

Driving Bernice in the Snow ("she's got some serious balls!")

My dads "onion goggles".

Devendra Banhart

Kittens

Serendipity Books

walks in the rain.

Lentils

Lori

Little Kangaroo & Baby Elephant

sleepovers

Chickweed

X-Files

Peanut Butter & Honey

My Bike Dagney

Treedrum & Lilichichi

The Crumbs are Gone & The Way is Lost

2009-01-12T16:04:00.000-08:00

I almost peed my pants in Target today. Why? i have no idea. But i think i now understand how a puppy feels in a new place. especially when it's as big a place as Target. yikes. What am i talking about...I cannot help but feel compassion for animals with bladder problems??? Ok. Learning new things everyday...it looks like i am becoming a better person after all. :)